Stop Comparing …

I constantly find myself asking the question, ‘why not me?’ … I look around and people I grew up seem to have their whole lives together. They’re either getting married, having kids, and excelling in their careers. I want to be striving too, but sometimes I feel I’m really not. Hell I can’t even get a guy to commit to me. People say I’m pretty and a great catch, but for some reason I can’t seem to get a relationship. Honestly that’s all I want. I want a boyfriend, I want someone who I can call my best friend. When is it my turn? Why can’t I have that? I feel I have grown. I no longer feel I am that shy little girl, but still I can’t seem to have what other people have. I watch people my age getting engaged and I can’t help but feel a little jealous. I want that. I want someone to love me like that. I want to be able to love someone like that. I want a. healthy relationship. I never had one. The only two real relationships I’ve had were completely toxic.

I know I need to stop comparing myself to others, it isn’t doing me any good. But social media doesn’t make it very easy. It causes so much anxiety in us. You see the “good” in peoples lives. But you have to rememberer they aren’t posting the “bad”. No one is publicly displaying the ongoing problems they are experiencing. So it may look life someone is having the best life online, when in actuality they’re having the most miserable time of their lives. That’s what I have to constantly tell myself. That things are never as it seems. That there’s always something hidden. Don’t assume. The phrase “assuming makes an ass of you and me” is ever so true, it really does.

I need to look at the positives. I have an amazing dog who loves me unconditionally. I have a job. I have a roof over my head. There are things to bee grateful for. But because of our time invested in social media, we get blinded.

Every day I am working on just being me. Not caring what other people think of me. My path is my path. Just because it hasn’t happened to me yet, doesn’t mean it won't. No one is better than me.